Yesterday, ive learnt the need to trust my intuition.
I had a bad feeling about something today - the most evident gut feeling of these past 2 years - that i shouldnt go ahead with my afternoon plans. And i shoved them aside on the basis of having to be 'cordial' (bek offered this term) and..for old times' sake. (Yet another thing that i shouldve already learnt prior to yesterday - never do things solely for old times' sake; Your graciousness in trying to be cordial may not be reciprocated.)
It affected me veryyyyyyyyy badly; i was..heartbroken - for the lack of a better word, since disappointed wouldnt even half describe the intensity of the emotion - as i my trust in an old friend were cruelly battered to death with a blunt weapon. (Hahaaah this just sounds weird somehow xD)
ANW. Yes true we mightve ended off on a wrong note, but..nobody deserves to be treated like that.
And nobody should ever be as heartless and cruel and wicked and scheming as you.
Then i started to ponder, whyyyy on earth didnt i trust my gut feelings. It occured to me that once before, my gut feelings had indeed caused a friendship to fall out, hence a i made a revolution to never trust my gut feelings - i decided that i would rather be logical and proven wrong, then trust my intuition and be wrong.
So i started reading, how can we develop and learn whether to trust our intuition, our sixth sense, our gut feelings. And i found this:
(I was actually gonna paraphrase some content, then i remember that original wordings would always capture the intended meaning better)Intuitive Techniques
Not surprisingly, you learn the most about intuition in silence. Take a few deep breaths, relax your body, relax your mind, and ask yourself, "What's my gut feeling right now?" "How do I really feel right now? What do I really want?" and act on it. You have to be willing to act on your intuition, to trust the feelings that you have because intuition means trusting your own integrity - trusting your gut, trusting your heart. And, if you're wrong, learn from it. Experts suggest using a journal to keep track of intuitions to see how many of them are accurate, and where you tend to fall into patterns of wishful thinking or excessive worry. It is also suggested that you pay attention to your dreams as they can enhance your intuitive abilities as well.
According to Shakti Gawain, author of Creative Visualization: Use the Power of Your Imagination to Create What You Want in Your Life, "the more you listen to your intuition and trust it and follow it, the stronger it becomes, so that you can really begin to feel the difference between your intuition and all the other voices that are going on inside of you." However, it is important to remember that intuition is not a substitute for reason. Rather, it is the part of your intellect that allows you to see the whole picture. Intuition acts like a bridge between your logical reasoning and the sum total of your experience-based knowledge.
That is why, i will need to sign up for yoga, and learn to meditate and cultivate my inner voice, find my inner balance, veryyyyyy soon.
A little quote worth contemplating over,
And thanks to along and bek, for giving me timely advice(s)♥ :)