Today in sch.
Me: "Bek, which is worse? When i am depressed, i binge.
Bek: "How about you alternate between the two?"
Hahahahha, Bek is just sooo amusing.
I am sure if i regularly alternate between the two,
i'll soon be sent for counselling; such high emotional-instability level x)
Knowing that there're all these good movies in the world that i have yetttt to watch, ohmytiannn i feel so deprived and not up-to-date. LIKE, i just watched Wild Child (*swoons*) today. REGARDLESS. Emma Roberts' strut's damnnnnnn hot :D
Oh well, but of course the highlight of the movie (alongside with the hot leading actress) is the extra HOT leading actor. totallyyy dig the accent mann (and the part where he pushed Emma away when she wanted to kiss him; hehehh, sooooo gentleman *hearts*.) They look amazinggg together.
Takeaway of the day: FEAST ON THIS BEBZ!(i suddenly sound so cannibalistic...hahaha)
*giggles*
when i was 14, i wanted a Brit boyfriend. today, and now i'm 18, i still want a Brit boyfriend, thanks to Alex Pettyfer♥ *blows kisses*
HEHEH :D
OH. This is lateeeee~ But i was sad that i missed the 19th March 2011 Supermoon views. Cause i stayed home.
Looked out *each* window every 30 min interval but didn't see the bigbiggg moon, not even a glimpse ):
Tried to even resort to online photos, but they are all 'Rights Reserved' and i can't put any up! OH WELLS.
So i side tracked abit (heheh), and found this instead:
CTs are over! (Y)
Okay so technically it's only CT1, which means we have CT2, and Prelims, and eventually As coming..
But well, not right now. Imma not think about that right now. (Ouffff my head hurts; urgh PUSH THAT THOUGHT AWAYYYY!)
before lessons begin on monday again, and ESPECIALLY before we get our results back.
Well, imma have fun now, before lessons and seasons (and focus-es -.-) begin. As much fun as i can have without having any $$. AIYAA.
This is a 'Just Because' post;
Just because we need some colour, some *pretty* things in our life.
♥Keep smilin' :D
How the heck am i supposed to find more brain storage space to remember all that i've studied? D:
My patience was greatly tested today.
1) I couldnt run as i normally would during training because of soooo many injured points (hamstring, groin area, ankle) that when people ask 'What's wrong?', I have no idea what to answer.
2) My stamina has been failing me. Ever since CNY when i fell sick for a week+, then the injuries one after another, i havent been given the chance to go on long runs. I am GREATLY underperforming.
3) I was surrounded by these 2 Chinese mothers and their respective daughter (I am sincerely not being racist here contray to popular beliefs) in the train and they were talking across soooo loudly to each other and flailing their hands for gestures. There was a moment when her hand was 5cm away from my face -.-
&*%$# ah.
4) I realise that when i say 'I ♥ kids!', i really refer to babies and toddlers. Anything beyond the age of 3, which is when they start running around and banging into people and shrieking loudly in trains are just irritating little imps. Where were their parents anywayyy?? *roll eyes*
5) WHERE THE HELL ARE YOU! I NEED YOU HERE, NOW. omg, pls, text me. Dx
I want a necklace like thattttt ~ :D
But still...
And i am hanging on that belief, even if only by a thread.
I started out trying to write an insightful reflection of what i've learnt today,
then i realised what i really need now is to just spit everything on my mind out.
1) 'Once upon time..' seems like such a foreign phrase even though the words have been read to us so frequently during our childhood days.
Perhaps, we have learnt that life isn't as black and white as it is in the fairytale books; bad people don't lock you up in a tall tower and cut your longggg hair when you meet your prince charming; neither do they dress like your grandma and try to eat you up, nor do they have rotten black teeth and give out shiny red (poisoned) apples.
Life is sooooo much more complex than that. Two-/three-/infinite- faced people, back-/front-/side- stabbers, and double-/triple-/quadraple- crossing incomprehensible human beings exist.
How else can i say it, life is just..life.
2) 'Happily ever after' doesn't come just because you lock eyes with a *Prince Charming*. Cause like in Shrek, Prince Charming could after all be Prince Dense/Vain (or both). Or you could just be cock-eyed (where you fail to see he is actually the Old Man/Evil Villain), in that case he isn't Prince Charming to begin with.
3) Have you ever realised that if Little Red Riding had gone to school, she would have learnt not to talk to strangers? And if she had opened her eyes a bit bigger and scrutinized more, she would have known it was the wolf and not her grandma in the bed?
4) I have never watched The Lion King, or Pochahontas before.
and 5) is more personal.
5) Once upon a time, i thought i met my *Prince Charming*. I was bent on making babies with him (after being legally married of course) and spending life till my last breath with him. And then i realise that perhaps, i was cock-eyed/ too myopic to realise that (no he was'nt dense nor was he vain) he was like a TV while i was a radio; pretty entertaining on our own, but we don't go well together. Just because.
Perhaps if i had scrutinized more, i would have realised it sooner. Before i actually set my ♥ on him.
Maybe i should just go watch Barbie for some 'I Am An Empowered Girl' action.
Wonder, wonder, wonder. (Sometimes, we humans wonder a lot relative to th little amount of work that we do.)
Wonder all you want, but it doesnt change the fact that grades are important, as many other things are.
Being streetsmart and charismatic are important to help you climb up the corporate/whatever-rank-you-want ladder fast, but getting good grades in school is also important in reflecting the kind of person you are - whether you're determined, whether you know how to prioritize, whether you can achieve amidst all the pressure (and competition) you face.
It's a very trying period for most of us right now; for one, I am at the brink of insanity. Family, school, and friends have been taking up a lot of my time till at times, i neglect allocating some 'me' time to destress, meditate, and simply love my self.
But right now, with exams and season (or syf or every other competitions) coming, life is moving on the fast lane. I'm not used to having multiple HIGH intensity periods in life, and I am not handling it too well.
Yet, while it's good to stop and ponder about the meaning of life, and the direction you're heading with all that you're doing right now, sometimes you just gotta do what you gotta do. Just because you're a daughter who needs to fulfil the hopes of her parents, just because you're an older sister who needs to model the way for her younger sister. Just because it's your duty to prove that the sacrifices everyone has made for you - be it parents, friends, aunts, cousins etc - to help you reach where you are right now, are all worth it.
Just because.
Hang in there, dear friends.
I am not hoping for too much from you - just make me laugh and smile :)
OHMYTIANS~! (Oh thats my new favourite word, FYI. Even if you weren't interested to know in the first place xD)
Had a friendly againnnnnn todayyy but this time it was against ACJC. Before the game started i swear i could feel butterflies fluttering around in my tummy. No idea why but perhaps it was cause i felt a little out of 'it' today - couldn't focus much. Damn you headache.
But anyhows, BranderNa and Mali were assuring us that we played a good game, considering that we had only a year of experience while most of them were in hockey since sec sch.
Yet I still can't shake away the feeling that a loss of 2-1 is terrible. End of story.
After all, a loss is a loss, is a loss ): TIME TO WORK EVEN HARDER KIDS!
Other than that, I'm really going through each day as it comes along; this week I am brimming with emotions, anticipation,
SO i shall divert this excess energy to doing homework.
CTs just sound soooooo near and intimidating. AMAGADZ~!
*hearts* you, and you, and YOU! :D
